A few days ago,my friend n I just having a chit chat.. so many things to share between us like sharing is caring .Suddenly she asking me something bout past. She gave me a scenario which i also didn’t understand.. I think not clearly understand hahaha but what I do is…. I just nodded my head n said hmm..hmm..yup..oic..but I know the story that she narrated to me is something with her life.(about her past). People wouldn’t ask you,something weird suddenly if nothing to do with themselves right? J so kena faham2 lah….
Well my dear friend,actually I don’t know what is the exactly or the real story what was happening in you ..but based on your story,I can see…,you are so confused of what was happened in your past. Something very paintful from your past…something strong..and that related to your present.Is that the things that you are worried my dear friend?
Actually friend,you don't need a past. If you don't like who you've been then start over. I used to have a very low opinion of myself, but I became someone else, someone I liked. It took a lot of pain, but what I've learned is that relationships matter. In fact, it might be the only thing that matters. You can exist without others, but true happiness only comes from love ,romantic or otherwise.
Don't know what to tell people who ask about your past? Tell them the truth (some of it). Tell them that you are a recovering asshole with a painful past who is trying to become a better person.
Think about this for a while who are you? Do you know what the word "person" means in ancient Greek? It means "mask". Like the happy face/sad face things from the theater. So you don't like the mask you're wearing? Change it ! ! You are not the mask. You're the one who wearing it. You're not your past .. ! you're aware of your past and you're not the things that you are aware of. We're not our bodies . . I see my hands moving as I type this. We're not our thoughts . . they float by one after another as our minds wander. You are the thing that is aware of all of this not anyone else.. !
Try that out for a while and see how you like it and start making a conscious effort to be nice to people.
OUR PAST IS WHAT MADE US OF WHAT WE ARE TODAY :))
