Between coffee and chocolate

Let’s get something straight here. I loved you . I loved you with everything I had in me but it was never good enough for you, I was never good enough for you. I would have done anything to keep you by my side , but you pushed me away for so long that I gave up. 

I’m walking from this and I can promise I’m never  looking back. It’s going to hurt, and it’s going to be tough, but I can’t keep on going with the way between us. It’s over and it’s been over  for  the longest time. As much as it kills to say this, we aren’t meant to be in each others  life anymore.  :’ ). We aren’t the same two people we used to be. We’ve changed, you are not the same boy I fell in love with. Hurmmm… that boy … well..he’s gone.. So what’s the point of loving him if he doesn’t exist anymore?

 I wanted to be with the guy who fought  for me more than anyone had ever , the guy who led me to believe when I was with him, I had nothing to worry about, the guy who I thought was different from all the rest . But it turns out, I was completely wrong. You left me so many times when I needed you the most. Every time I begged you to stay, you always found a reason to leave…… Yeah I do love you until whenever, but being in love with you isn’t enough anymore. I have to walk away from this, even though it’s probably going to destroy me.  

But .. Hey trust me I'm fine .. totally fine if I'm not how can I still answer your phone call and talk like nothing's happen. I'm cool yo .. :) isn't it ? I believe Lord has given me a strong heart to face all this. So between coffee and chocolate I choose chocolate  because chocolate is a perfect food, as wholesome as it is delicious, a beneficent restorer of exhausted power and brings the happiness..

It's just a thought

I have been thinking about you a lot recently and its weird. Usually I’m thinking about someone else or have other  things on my mind, but lately its been you. I dont’t get it . It’s not like we even knew each other  for that long at all, but  you stuck in my head and every once in a while we talk and its normal and fine and I miss you all over again. Usually it fades, but this time its not. I miss you so much and I just don’t get it  WHY ???? !!!! I wish I could understand or make sense of it somehow. I still remember when I first met you, it makes me laugh when I think about it . I wish so many things that I need to let go of including the memories …As time goes by,I begin to realize things do change and sometimes you just have to let go what’s gone, appreciate what  is still remains and look forward to what’s coming  tomorrow .

“What screws us up the most in life is the picture in our head of how it is supposed to be”

Seorang kawan yang baru saya kenal

Yeah saya kembali lagi untuk tulis tulis di dalam blog ini. Okay kali nih nak cerita pasal seorang kawan yang baru sangat  dikenali tuh pon just kat ALAM MAYA ja. Nama harus lah di rahsiakan kan...? ok lah kita letak nama dia as Mr.Kecik ( maybe sebab saya lagi tinggi daripada dia kot) hahahahha , xpe rasanya dia tak kisah kot sebab dia seorang yang sangat happening , saya suka chatting dengan dia as in dia seorang yang agak suka mengusik and suka buat lawak . Kadang-kadang sampai tergelak kuat depan Encik Lappy sebab chatting dengan dya . .

Hari nih saya chat lagi dengan dia macam biasa then dia tanya saya

Mr.Kecik : Awak tengah buat apa?

Mrs.Cute  : Tengah dengar lagu adele 

Mr.Kecik : Err..saya tak minat lagu adele

Mrs.Cute  : Lagu tuh kena dengan my current situation, layan je lah

Mr.Kecik : Tapi lagu dia semua mendatangkan perasaan negatif. Bak kata kawan saya lagu yang tak move

                  on langsung.

Mrs.Cute  : Agak lah kan lagu semua macam broken hearted je kan ?

Mr.Kecik  : Tu la ... baik awak dengar lagu yang boleh tambah semangat ke but jangan lah yang bab- bab 

                    cinta nih ..

Then Mr.kecik nih pon bagilah saya dengar lagu kat bawah nih . Seriously first time saya dengar lagu nih, saya macam  "WOW" best gila kot ... memang sangat awesome !!! Rasa macam ada semangat baru tamabah-tambah bila baca ayat quotes intro...

"Don't only practice your art

But force your way into its secret

For it and knowledge can

Raise men to the divine"

So thanks to you Mr.kecik sebab buat saya sedar kalau kita tengah sedih,cuba cari something yang boleh buatkan kita happy or bangun semula ...

Beautiful In White

HELLO !! HELLO !! ... act tak tahu nak hupdate ape .. tapi nk hupdate blog nih sbb bosan ..Dengar x lagu yang saya letak dalam blog nih , sedap tak ? masa saya pergi beli baju dekat TIMES SQUARE ada satu kedai nih pasang lagu nih banyak-banyak kali. First time saya dengar reaksi saya macam .." eh lagu ape nih sedap giler !!!"

So saya pon try lah cari dalam fon hello kitty saya nih tapi tak jumpaaa .... nak tnya owner kedai tapi maluuu (",) .So try lah pergi usha2 dekat dekstop komputer tapi tak nampakkk.Lastly saya dengan slumbernye tanya "boleh tak saya nak tanya something? nih lagu apa eh ?" owner kedai tuh buat muka pelik kat saya lepas tuh senyum pulak then dya cakap "westlife, beautiful in white"

Lepas tuh on the spot saya download lagu tuh siap menghayati lirik lagu you .Lagu nih sangat romantik lah kalau2 para lelaki nak tujukan lagu nih dekat bakal isteri. Lagu nih jugak dinyanyikan oleh shane filan masa wedding dia untuk isteri dia ... arghhhh so romantik you ...Kalau ada lelaki bagi saya lagu nih for sure saya akan kahwen dengan dya!!!! .

Nih lirik lagu beautiful in white

Not sure if you know this

But when we first met

I got so nervous
I couldn't speak

In that very moment 
I found the one and
My life had found its
Missing piece

So as long as I live I love you
Will have and hold you
You look so beautiful in white
And from now 'til my very last breath
This day I'll cherish
You look so beautiful in white
Tonight

What we have is timeless
My love is endless
And with this ring, I
Say to the world

You're my every reason
You're all that I believe in
With all my heart, I 
Mean every word

So as long as I live I love you
Will have and hold you
You look so beautiful in white
And from now 'til my very last breath
This day I'll cherish
You look so beautiful in white
Tonight

And if a daughter's what our future holds
I hope she has your eyes
Finds love like you and I did, yeah
But when she falls in love we'll let her go
I'll walk her down the ailse
She'll look so beautiful in white
You look so beautiful in white

Cukup lah sampai sini ..So enjoy the song :)

Sugar and Lemon

Is that easy to ignore me hmm? 

Even when I'm crying my breath out.

When we are skype-ing for the last time

YOU still can ask me , why your mata LEBAM?

Eventhough you know, you are the reason WHY 

You are just too selfish

When I say I can't breathe because of my heart was beating fast

Everytime I'am thinking of you

I'm not joking..I'm  SERIOUS

but you never care !!!

I faint alone in my room and you are not even here

YOU want me to stop complaining .. Alright

That means.. we're not talking forever

Cause you don't know me

You have friends and other girlfriends too

You wouldn't  have to feel missing

Cause I'm not Important to you

Cause I'm a trash for you

That is so clear ......

So have fun living your life without me

If there's one person to feel sad she could die, It's me ... HEY IT'S ME!!!!

Cause I LOVE YOU so much and it's hurt. My Fault too

And now time to bring back my big and thick wall

So that any guy couldn't walk through it.

Let me live alone , with my family and my friends

And no matter how much i needed you, you wouldn't be here

I think it is over

You wanted this way

In fact, you wouldn't feel anything pun ...

So here all the things that you gave me

I already put it one side at the corner of my room
I hope it will helps me to forget all the memory of you eventhough I know it doesn't help at all
but at least I have tried

I want you to know I have moved on
NO NO NO NO
I'm trying to move on 
NO NO NO NO
I have to move on
I want to chase my dreams ( working in Saudi )
Pass with FLYING COLOURS in my LJM
You broke  my heart once 
So no more second times 
You broke all your promices
Makes me not believe you anymore
I have locked my heart so no one can hurt me like you did
DON'T WORRY about me
Of course I will be happy without you