I Wanna Grow Old With You

First of all I wanna thank to you so so sooo much! This has been the best 11 months of my life. Thank you so much for making me so damn happy, and choosing me out of all the girls in the world. It means so much to me. I love you more than anything but I love my family more especially my mommy (hehehehehe).You make things easier when life get hards,you really do. You’ve helped me through so much. Thank you for everything. Thank you for making life worth it.

You don’t know how badly I want this. THIS kind of love that never dies out. I don’t wanna be the grumpy old wife who yells at their husband all the time or ignores him giving the silent treatments.

 I wanna be the old wife who loves their husband more than she loved him yesterday.

 I want to be able to laugh with him,

 hold hands in the park,

have a wheelchair race,

take pictures of each other,

give him old smoochy kisses, and just cuddle in bed.

 I want to be able to tell him I love him more and more each day.

 And if he were deaf, I’d want to write it out on a giant poster with lots of colors, so I could place it somewhere he would lay eyes on it every hour.

I want to die old, happily in love with you

FOREVER

F.R.I.E.N.D

Well hello hye bloggies … lamenye ku tidak menghupdate blog nih . Lately mmg busy dgn test , assignment and some group discussion…kadang-kadang xbusy pon tapi BRAIN nih x HARDCORE nak menjana idea y power2 tuk di-interprept kan dalam blognye version nih …

Bulan January dah habessss yeay ! ! ! ..dah masuk second weeks of feb dah pun kejap je mase berlalu kan? Dalam masa sebulan tuh macam-macam boleh terjadi .. tentang hati,perasaan …. Kadang-kadang kita cube sembunyikan masalah dengan gelak kuat-kuat , senyum je 24 jam …over react bile tgk movie kelakar macam orang giler je kan ? saya lah tuh …tapi semua tuh di panggil sebagai DIVERTIONAL THERAPY di mana kite meng-divert-kan fikiran kita untuk tidak fikir tentang masalah yang selalu mengganggu kita ataupun kesedihan yang meruntun hati ini lah …senang cakap ….

Do you ever think that you will lose somebody that always be with you all the time?,have you ever imagine that one day they will be a stranger in your life..? you even can’t look on their  face , but it’s not because of you hate them but it’s because of you feel that they are someone else in your life. Do you? I never imagine if that things happen to me.But it did happen to me. Haaaiisshhhh (long sigh) what am I going to do ? tell me bloggies ………

Friendship are just like a relationship but what make this two things a little bit different is … people will not say “I broke up with my friend” they will just say “I fight with my friend”….isnt it? . Friendship is about forgiveness.How many times your friend hurt you,you still will forgive and forget the mistake and move on.That’s why friendship is more last longer than relationship.Of course in order to make a last longer relationship, we must think in other perception. Sudah melalut nih ……

I know im not a good friend hahahaha ( gelak jap )or I can say I don’t know how to be a good friend. Hurmmmmm actually I don’t really like to have many friend.For me I just need a friend who can stay with me,understand me,cry with me, hug me when I say im ok well actually im not ..denial di situ,the one that I can share my problems and the most important is boley tahan saya membebel hahahaha hobi para wanita ….. perempuan memang suka membebel kan … kalo tak membebel bukan perempuan lah kan hahahha ….. but the most important things is be honest with me….

Maybe I’m not a good friend for you I don’t even visit you when you were admitted in the hospital, that’s because I don’t know… if I have an ability to invent a time machine I would stay with you while you were in the hospital,company you  over the night but I can’t …maybe it’s sound sarcastic but what  do you see me from the outside is sarcastic. The clock is still running,the earth is still spinning on its orbit.I cant go back to the past……People always talking back about you but I don’t care that is their problems with you nothing to do with me…you are still my friends.I know you more than them but I am very disappointed  with you when you are telling me the wrong things over n over  eventhough you know I know the truth. My dear friends , I never underestimate on you..I am friends with you as what you are ..You know how I am, I wouldn’t  show you how much I care for you …but I did ….

Friend do you still remember when the first tyme we slept on the same bed?( on my bed) you woke me up just because you can't slept and you were asking my permission to sleep over with me.The first nasi goreng sardin that you made for me when I was hungry..and I still remember when you were nagging at me because of my bed was messy. And ada lagi .......

Friend if you think by deleting all the memories is the best thing for you then go ahead..that’s your right but to me I wouldn’t,because memories are the one that make the friendship is very valuable. And if you are wondering whether you are still my friend, I will answer yes …. Good Luck